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What a dream a life that doesn’t need medication. Well it’s a pity mine does but the doctor at the hospital has carelessly cut me off from my medication. I do not know how I will cope. I’m barely coping with it. I feel like giving that doctor some nerve damage. See if he goes asking for medication and help only to be rejected. It’s not a good feeling to know theres no help(or maybe i ment hope) for a young person with trigeminal neuralgia. I have to live. I have too many mates and family to kill myself. If only just to satisfy they’re need to have me in they’re lives. Does this make sense? yeah I know all this should be on my other site. It’s just this ones a bit more anon. Thanks for dropping by for a read. I don’t intend for this blog to make people feel happy or sad but just to hear me out. But please don’t just take away the sad pieces. I have happy times too. Just not a lot lately.

Peace,

LD

Well I didnt want to get detained so I walked out. Doesn’t anyone get any peace. I think I did the right thing. We’ll find out.

Peace,

LD

Last night I had a handful of benzos too put me to sleep but I’m awake already and it’s 6am.  I have been having auditory hallucinations lots lately, Its scary, unpredictable and makes me want to carry out orders I don’t want to do. They hospital didn’t seem to think it was a problem. They were so very wrong.

I have no idea what im gonna do today. I guess I’ll just stay out of trouble.

Peace,

LD

I feel so low and lonley. I have just come from hospital from being brought in by police. They detained me overnight. I truly am suicidal but it didn’t seem to matter to the psych. So here I am at home alone getting drunk and mixing pills. I sometimes wonder if I ever wake up. today is different I’m really alone my partners not here. I am sorry to all the friends I’ve lost I didn’t mean to hurt anyone.

Peace,

LD aka NW

I had physio today and hydrotherapy. Normally I walk out with my back feeling a tonne better but today its hurting to sit stand walk the rest… I know im probably slumping a bit and looking at the ground alot cos I walked into the car the other day n banged my head on the boot(it was lifted open).

Today I gonna make an effort to do something. anything. We’ll see what happens.

Peace,

LD (NW)

Sometimes I feel like I’ve totally had it with everything. Im frustrated anxious and in pain most of my days. Enough to drive anyone nuts. I don’t think all the tablets in the world would make this feeling go away. I just try to take everyday as it comes. I try and concentrate on the very simple things in life.

Peace,

LD (NW)

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